The Universe is Always Supporting Me
This pandemic has tested my spiritual work. I struggled the last few weeks to get back to myself. I have been (as most of us have been) going up and down in the feelings spectrum.
Angry. Sad. Depressed. Anxious. Scared. Fearful. Optimistic. Happy. Loved. Supported.
I know we are not alone in this. But we all feel like our situation is different than the next persons’. And that is where anxiety takes hold like a cowboy on a horse ready to ride off into the sunset. Yehawwww. You are now under my control, anxiety replies, cunningly. I respond, ‘Hello Anxiety, I see you. Hello Fear, would you like some tea with your cookies?’
Another great tactic, call you fear by its name. ‘Hi Fear, I see you behind the door. Come on out so I can deal with you.’
Since my last post, I have canceled my inaugural June Tuscany Retreat. It was a hard decision, but it was the right one. There was no way I would’ve felt comfortable to host six people in Tuscany. As much as I wanted to.
I have had more stupid petty fights with my husband. They all end with a hug, thankfully. However, all of this anger is testing my spiritual growth. Basically saying to me, ‘You have more shit to work through, Katie.’ Childhood traumas, inner child issues and all of my anxiety and fears that have been hanging over me like a rain cloud for thirty-nine years. There is so much I need to let go of and forgive and stop apologizing for being the person I am.
The world needs me just the way I am.
I also created a YouTube channel for the yoga practices I have created for myself and clients. I love this creative outlet of developing my style of teaching yoga. I never liked seeing or hearing myself on camera, but here I am being me, on camera, with that voice and my disheveled hair. I am ok with it. I am proud of what I have created. Milly, my cat, has made a few guest appearances, mostly with her sitting in front of my iPad or licking her lady bits for all of YouTube to see.
Meditation has been a daily activity for me. If I don’t have time to meditate during the day (lie, I always have time) I create art with my new set of paints. It is meditative for me.
Today in meditation, I asked the universe what it thought about traveling to Italy this year. I got a clear response. I announced in my recent newsletter that I will still keep my Christmas in Florence Retreat on the website until I have a strong sign that it won’t happen. I am very much ok with it not running. Safety first.
My intention for this retreat is to share my beloved city to new travelers, yogis, meditators who want to rent a gorgeous apartment in the historic city center of Florence. I want to help all my friends who work with tourists. I want to give back. I want to bring them to my friend’s small vineyard in Chianti. I want to use my friend Max’s drivers to pick up my customers from the airport. I want to help my dear friend with her handmade jewelry business by hiring her to do a jewelry making class for us.
I want to help with all my heart and soul.
My answer from my meditation was a maybe this retreat will run looking face for December, but then the universe energetically pointed to my Florence Retreat in May and was nodding its head violently up and down to say,
THAT IS WHEN YOU ARE BRINGING PEOPLE TO FLORENCE. MAY 2021.
I always pick an oracle card or two after I meditate to ask the universe “to reveal to me what I need to know”. I picked Lord Ganesh, Infinite Abundance. Underneath the picture of the elephant headed god it reads: Obstacles are being removed. Spiritual support and connections are increasing.
I totally feel this shift of connection and spiritual support. It is true, if after all this time in our homes we didn’t somehow go deeper within ourselves, then it was time wasted. I definitely have realized how much my spiritual work is needed to sustain my mindset for the future.
Something stuck with me in the extended message of Lord Ganesh:
It’s important at this time to move beyond the limitations of ‘it’s not meant to be’ and focus on ‘if this is for my highest good then the universe will take me there safely.’
Yes! I keep telling myself ‘if it’s meant to be, it will run’.
However, the story needs to change now.
I am declaring it now:
If running the December retreat in Florence is for my highest good then the universe will take me there safely.
Keeping connecting to your higher self and all your queries, questions, uncertainties will be answered and the universe will reveal to you if it is for your highest good.
What are you working on spiritually for yourself?
Love & Light,
Christmas in Florence Retreat will be December 14-19, 2020. There will be yoga, meditation and exploring the wonderful city of Florence.
Our Seaside Retreat will be in Ostuni, Italy (the heel of the boot). September 4-11, 2021.
There are early-bird discounts for both Florence and Ostuni. Check out the links to get more info.